tuesday morning.

was shot in the heart as I woke up this morning. having a hard time seeing through the tears. every time this happens, I go through it all again...the pain, the tears, the anger, the nightmares, the overwhelming sense of loss that bores a deeper and darker black hole inside me. but the black hole is the only part of me that doesn't hurt...the numbness is seductive.

what does it take for these people to realize that suicidie bombing is WRONG??? whatever twisted logic justifies continuing this INHUMAN behavior has no place in a peaceful palestinian society (as if there ever could be such a thing?). but then again, the terrorists don't want a palestinian state.